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[crimeson]

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Re: day 360

[crimeson]

[at this point randy is just trying not to radiate sad dog energy.

gets them set up at a table with crepes, does not make to touch doodle again.]

...It's not about owing you anything.

Re: day 360

[avestan]

[sits but doesn't touch his crepes just yet]

...Then what is it about?

Re: day 360

[crimeson]

An apology. I made light of my life in front of someone who cared about me, and that was a dick move.

Re: day 360

[avestan]

I'm glad you did. Never would've gotten to find out that's how you feel otherwise, right?

Re: day 360

[crimeson]

...I sure coulda timed it better.

Re: day 360

[avestan]

Haha, well. It saved me the trouble of feeling shit about you being gone.

Re: day 360

[crimeson]

...

Jus' done with me, huh?

Re: day 360

[avestan]

I'm...

[he's been trying so hard to keep up this mocking tone and pretend like he's totally done with lance and relationships as a whole and all that human bullshit but

here in this moment he can't really keep it up]

I'm still pretty fucking mad at you.

Re: day 360

[crimeson]

[oh.

o h.]

...Well I can't say that isn't extremely fair.

Re: day 360

[avestan]

I told you everything, y'know? I let myself be totally vulnerable around you like a total fucking idiot. And then you sell your soul and leave and then you drop something like that on me and let me know I don't actually know anything about you?

Do you even understand just how much of a complete and utter fool you made of me?

Re: day 360

[crimeson]

[HEY RANDY YOU'RE A FUCKING JACKASS IDIOT LIFERUINER]

...I didn't. I didn't get it at all.

I. This isn't an excuse. But I never intended to hide anything from you. I guess I'm just... too used to keeping my shit under wraps.

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Re: day 360

[avestan]

And it just never occurred to you? That it might be kind of a shitty thing to let someone else open their heart to you and not open yours in return?

Re: day 360

[crimeson]

You have my heart!

Re: day 360

[avestan]

Don't you fucking dare say that like you mean it. Not when you've never trusted me with anything.

Re: day 360

[crimeson]

What the- I mean it! I've really fucked up so bad that you think I don't trust you?!

Re: day 360

[avestan]

L☆ance. Usually when you trust someone, you tell them things. Especially if you're in a relationship with them. Especially if it's something as significant as you not wanting to be alive.

Do I need to keep explaining? Are you seriously so stupid you need an embodiment of evil to tell you how to be less of an asshole?

Re: day 360

[crimeson]

[kind of. makes a wounded dog noise and puts his head in his hands]

Yes? I'm so fucking stupid, you know this.

Look, I. If stuff had come up, I wouldn't have hidden it from you? I know that's not the same, but... It's hard to just whip out shit like "I can never forgive myself and it makes me want to die when people are nice to me because I know I'll never deserve it"???

Re: day 360

[avestan]

Oh, so you think it was easy for me to tell you about my shit?

Re: day 360

[crimeson]

Of course I don't! I know how important it was, that you would tell me those things!

Re: day 360

[avestan]

So you don't get to say that it's hard. You could've told me if you actually wanted to.

Re: day 360

[crimeson]

...You're right. I'm... more sorry than I know how to tell you.

Is it too late?

Re: day 360

[avestan]

[sigh]

I have no idea. It's not like I'm actually any good at this relationship crap.

Re: day 360

[crimeson]

I'm not either. But... I'd like to try?

An' if you hate me when you know more about me... at least I won't be hiding.

Re: day 360

[avestan]

[opens his mouth to point out that he already hates everyone

but decides that if lance is going to try maybe he should as well

so he just nods]

Re: day 360

[crimeson]

...More than you already do, I mean. I try not to count that.